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[hidden_jedi]

Obviously Kale was going to have to kill Carcer. It was the only way. He thumped down the stairs plotting murder, in search of Tobias. Really, did he have to tell Revan? And did Revan have to even bring it up? And then give him that sort of 'you need to tell Tobias' thing?

"Tobias?" he called out as he reached the bottom of the stairs.

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[force-killer.livejournal.com]

"Bao, no, not there, look just... I'll get it, just leave that where it is." Tobias will be just rising to his feet and heading for a chair that Bao's apparently been pushing around. The little remote toodles a greeting to Kale.

He turns to smile at him while he does a one-legged hop over to the chair. "Something you need, Kale?"

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

He manages a smile and a hello to Bao before flopping on the couch. He stares at the ceiling before saying, "Revan suggested I tell you something." His voice indicated extreme reluctance to say what it was.

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

He gives the chair a shove to the left and, nodding in satisfaction, goes back over to Kale. "Tell me something," he repeats as he sits down. "Tell me what?"

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

Kale keeps his distance from Tobias, instead of snuggling up to him as he usually did. "About Trever and me."

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

Tobias finds that rather curious, and the cogs in his head start turning at hyperspeed trying to figure it out. "Oh? Well, go ahead."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

He tugs at his gloves, "We were isolated, you know? Not allowed off the farm... and there was just us..."

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

"And when you grew up you started to experiment with each other?" he surmises, tilting his head.

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

"Well... more than experimented... really..." He's not looking at Tobias.

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

"Ah. I see." And with all his wandering, he really does know. "That might explain his hold over you..."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

"Oh?" He shifts some more, wondering if he's comfortable with Tobias being so accepting.

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

"Yes." Obviously Kale will have to force him to elaborate if he wants to know more.

He pauses. "Not that I'm condoning what you and Trever did. It's wrong and dangerous, and if this were the old Jedi Order I'd have perfect cause to stop training you."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

Kale ducks his head and rubs his neck, staring at some point a few feet beyond his shoes. "It didn't feel like that. It felt good."

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

Tobias leans toward him a little. "I know. But the emotions that go with it, in most cases..." He hates the phrase 'can lead to the Dark Side'. He'd heard it so much when he was a kid that he couldn't stand to say it now.

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

For a moment Kale's eyes flash in anger, "How is it any different than between us?" he asked.

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

Tobias hesitates and looks away. "It's not. I'd thought I had the self-control to keep my hands off of you but I obviously didn't, and frankly because of that I shouldn't be training you."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

Kale runs his hands through his hair, not understanding it at all. This was the problem of not having grown up in the Temple. "Why? I don't understand."

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

Tobias sighs. "Jedi avoid strong emotion because it can and often does lead to the Dark Side. All strong emotion, not just the negative ones; compassion can do just as much damage as anger, and some of the worst villans are born out of a desire to do good."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

Silent for a moment, Kale laughed shakily, "I'm doomed aren't I?"

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

Tobias's lips twitch and he pulls Kale into a hug (more comforting and almost-fatherly than anything else). "Don't say that. You're not doomed."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

He leaned into the embrace, not making it anything more than what it was. "Then what am I?"

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

"You're you." Which will not be the case later, as it were~ "You have the freedom to choose how things go for you."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

"And yet you say that things won't go the way I want them to, if I continue the way I do." Yes, but they don't know that yet.

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

"Now when did I say that?" He shakes his head a bit as if to dismiss the question. "It might come as a complete surprise," he murmurs, with a trace of sarcasm that's gone for the next bit, "but I don't know everything about the Force."

[hidden-jedi.livejournal.com]

"Oh really?" He laughs softly and then turns serious. "What did you mean about that bit about Trever's hold over me?"

[force-killer.livejournal.com]

He rumbles quietly. "The dreams. And I know you're borrowing knowledge from him and he from you, over what I assume would be a distance that would dull the perception of other bonds. And I've heard that sometimes you don't... act like yourself."