hidden_jedi | [2.2 Its all his/her fault! ]

It's his fault I'm like this. Like this. Like him. Empty-broken. He tore me away from life, from Trever, from my other half. And yet I still cling to him.

I know he didn't mean it. No. I know he didn't want to do it. I don't understand why he did it. Following orders is hardly an excuse. He's far too... I don't know, I thought he was to smart to do that.

Apparently not.

I can't sleep. I can hear the echoes in my mind, millions screaming in agony, hatred, despair. I don't know how to block them out. I don't tell him. It would just make him worry more. And all he does is worry.

And he feels guilty about what happened to me. I know that. How could he not though? It's his fault. He had a choice. He didn't have to do what Revan told him to do. Orders or not. It doesn't matter.

Now I'm empty. Dangerous. I can't leave the house except to go to the compound least someone try to take me and turn me into a weapon. It's driving me crazy.

But I can't tell him. He cares too much for me. I don't want to hurt him.

Even if it is his fault.

Patient: Kale Delvar
Fandom: Star Wars, OC
Words: 212